July 1st, 2014

pigtails

Bring Sally up, bring Sally down

I don't really know what to say about 6 days of solid acro. I am struggling to get my head out of the physicality space and back into the cerebral. Meanwhile my body wants to know why the hell I'm sitting still and when I'm going to get up and do something. Resisting the urge to quit my job and run off to join the circus full time. The understanding that I have so many things to learn, but that there are pathways to get there.

You know when you spend a significant amount of time focused on one thing, your world narrows down to that view only, and it becomes difficult to process anything else? And how there's a quietude to be found in the exclusion of distraction that's difficult to achieve in the default world?

I am a lot of things - a crafter, a developer, a mother, a partner, a drug policy geek, a writer of wordy and introspective blogs - but for the last week I've been nothing but a body, and it's been interesting. Kind of like a meditation retreat, with pain. It ends up being a nice place, one that's hard to leave.

This morning as I did my core engagement exercises, I found myself missing Sally.

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK