January 24th, 2006

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Finding that balance

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In other news, I left the .petsnark community. It was getting boring, always the same things being snarked in the same way, and a whole bunch of black-and-white thinking. Boring and mildly irritating. I was tempted to do a parting post containing all the things that are guaranteed to push people's buttons, but meh.

This week I start advertising. I'm thinking vet noticeboards, feed stores, Wrightsons. Considering a letterbox drop at some stage, but I'd like to have my grinder set up first. Anyone have a workshop with three-phase power that wouldn't mind a grinder set up in the corner? Or know anyone selling cheap inverters?

Also, did you know that having hayfever makes your breasts stiff? It's true! I saw it on TV! There's this advert. It has this virtual woman with hayfever. She has a really big red head and boobs like balloons that don't move. She takes *generic hayfever drug* and lo! her head shrinks back to normal size and her breasts start bouncing around with gleeful abandon! So there you have it. Speaking of which, my nipples are trying to introduce themselves to people today. It's, um.. odd.

And my pants are growing. They are almost at the falling down stage. *goes to get a belt*
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Scary parallels

I've been reading pro-ana websites (don't ask). It occurred to me as I transferred money to my credit card and savings - leaving myself in Bakedbeansville till next payday - then went back to my 'Holy crap this is a religion for some people!' reading, that being miserly with money is anorexia of a different kind.

Sure, it won't kill you. Well, unless you decide to skimp on home heating in the middle of hell freezing over - or buy the budget food that's missing a vital mineral, or whatever.

But it has the same power to take over the mind, the same aspects of control, and the same bean-counting methodical aspect of familiar mind-tracks.

It scared me how good it felt to be depriving myself of spending money to reach my goal of X amount of dollars in the bank.