February 25th, 2005

happy

Questions with elusive answers

Last night I spent talking someone down from a very bad headspace, over much coffee and herbal tea and porridge of all things. As we talked, I realised how easy it is to be rational and sensible about other people's issues and how I should listen to my own advice because there are moments when it's actually quite good.

Today I feel jittery and restless and trying to decide whether I should be sensible and get a business degree or follow my dream and go back into agriculture. The problem is, if I go into agriculture I'm unlikely to make enough money to have my own farm, and it seems that other things may make a quicker track to the ultimate goal. But what other things? That is the question I can't seem to answer. I seem to be one of those ill-fated folk who's mainly interested in stuff that's absorbing but destines one to a life of poverty. What to do, what to do?

And I watched Betty Blue again. Man that guy is hot! Sooo hot. Mmmm..

To entertain myself, I'm practicing going up and down into sumo stance. Apparently it'll help. It certainly doesn't hurt. I'm also waving my arms randomly because it seems like the right thing to do. I -will- have the posture from hell.