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In which I air my clean laundry in public - Tactical Ninja

Aug. 26th, 2014

09:52 am - In which I air my clean laundry in public

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Turns out Jaycar, the shop that sells the electronics goodies in Wellington, has moved. It hasn't moved that far out of my way, but by the time I'd got to their old location, going to the new one was more of a mission. Still, I decided it was worth it and came home with my little treasure trove of resistors, cables, hookup wire, and battery snaps, ready to fire ahead with my project.

By the time I'd tested all the LEDs it was dark, and unfortunately I don't have a lamp that allows fine soldering at night-time. Especially since on count, I have exactly one good LED up my sleeve for if mistakes are made. I'm a little disappointed that out of the 50 LEDs I bought, 7 were duds straight out of the packet. Although, it does bear out my theory on why my array didn't work properly the first time.

Today, today I shall get home in time to solder some stuff. Yep.




There is something melancholy and sad about wet sheets hanging limply on a washing line early in the morning. And in Wellington, there being no wind is almost unheard-of. Still, I figure if they're out there they have a better chance of getting dry than if they aren't. Also, look! Daffodils! Spring is coming, damnit.

I've been reading about the concept of sexual fluidity. Apparently numerous studies have shown that people in general but women in particular tend to have a less fixed sexual identity than previously believed. The idea being that most people have a 'main' sexual identity, but that given the right set of circumstances, which will vary between individuals, many people will depart from this. Which is not exactly rocket science. These days there are names for this sort of thing. Have you heard someone describe themselves as heteroflexible, homoflexible, or bicurious? According to the thing I'm reading, this is more common than people think.

I haven't got very far into it, and I'm a little backfooted by a very vague* hint of a WOMBYN R SPESHUL vibe about it, but it's an interesting concept and I'd like to understand it more so I'll persist. I'm assuming that at some point that isn't the introduction or the first chapter (which is essentially defining terminology and is where I fell asleep - literally**), it'll present the research that backs this up and I'll be able to get my teeth into something that's both interesting and useful information, and probably (cos it's me) come up with a bunch of questions that are tangential to the research and which are not answered in the book.

Every field needs one of those people, right? Right?

Meanwhile, I'm now at a crossroads with the health stuff. The doctor conferred with Osteodude, who is convinced that my problem is not entirely musculo-skeletal. I am supposed to go back to the doctor (another $65 KA-CHING!) to 'discuss my options'. What this means is that they've run out of ideas for the standard things it could be, so now there apparently needs to be a discussion of the non-standard things. The reason it's a crossroads is that I've spent a fair bit of money, several months of my time and a bunch of tests, and I'm no better off or any closer to knowing what's up with my back. The pain that originally sent me to the doctor is gone, but it's revealed a more persistent, less obvious pain, which seems to have everyone stumped. I'm kind of over spending money for no answers, so I haven't made that appointment yet. I know I *should*, but I'm just very meh about the whole thing at the moment.

Yes, I realise this is self-defeating. But so far, being proactive has had no better result, you know?


Apparently it's raining in the Black Rock Desert. Like, enough for there to be standing water and sludge all over Black Rock City, the playa is undriveable, and the gates stayed closed yesterday. They say that the gates will stay closed into Tuesday but may open midday Tuesday, which is about 6am Wednesday for us. I'm thinking of Dr Wheel, Mangle, and their companions, and hoping this doesn't have too big an impact on their week. I am picturing them setting up on the side of the road and getting on with it. After all, everyone goes to BM equipped to camp and be self-sufficient, right?

* So vague that I might be imagining it because I have a chip on my shoulder about such things.
** Catch 22 - bed is the warmest place for reading, being warm in bed makes me sleepy.

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From:adam_0oo
Date:August 25th, 2014 10:07 pm (UTC)
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My sister was going to BM today, MAN do I feel bad for her, she will be so pissed. Not to mention, where to stay? She was driving with relative strangers, who I am sure are nice, but she knows lots of people who she would meet THERE, not on like the desert highway or in the parking lot of a Reno hotel.

I mean, I am sure she will be fine, I am just bummed about her being bummed, you know?

Also, you NEEDING to get the research on sexual fluidity is just so adorably you.
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From:tatjna
Date:August 25th, 2014 10:18 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, I have a similar emotion* going on regarding Dr Wheel, even though he's with friends. He travelled such a long way to get there, I hope they can get in soon and get on with it.

Mostly I want to read the research because of how painfully aware I am of how easy human brains find confirmation bias as a mental exercise. Also, it's just more stuff to know about. MUST.LEARN.EVERYTHING.


* I'm sure German has a word for this.
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From:adam_0oo
Date:August 25th, 2014 10:20 pm (UTC)
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Maybe FINNISH has a word for this?

And sure, you accept the way you feel, but want to understand the why you feel the way you feel, especially since you didn't used to feel the way feel before, when you felt differently than you do now.
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From:tatjna
Date:August 25th, 2014 10:35 pm (UTC)
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Pretty much this.

I know Finnish has a word for feeling embarrassed on someone else's behalf (myötähäpeä), but I don't know of one for disappointment. My search found me this though, which I call a win.
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From:adam_0oo
Date:August 25th, 2014 10:47 pm (UTC)
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Amazing.
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From:meathiel
Date:August 26th, 2014 07:09 am (UTC)
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Can't think of one, though! ;-)
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From:plantgirl
Date:August 27th, 2014 12:04 pm (UTC)
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I'm fond of this site, because it lists summaries of many studies and discusses the strengths and weaknesses of each. Not sure what they have on fluid sexuality, but it's worth searching:
http://digest.bps.org.uk/

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From:richdrich
Date:August 26th, 2014 03:08 am (UTC)
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I've never seen that bad a fail rate on LEDs, but they don't like heat much.

(Containing gallium, which melts if you touch it, might be one reason).

Especially if your leds are right up against the board, like yours, you should try and heatsink with pliers on the leads and minimise the solder time, or even consider low melt solder if you can find any.
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From:tatjna
Date:August 26th, 2014 03:10 am (UTC)
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Five of the seven that were duds out of the packet hadn't been anywhere near a source of heat before I tested them.

I suspect having bought them off TradeMe may be the ultimate correlation here.
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From:meathiel
Date:August 26th, 2014 07:08 am (UTC)
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but women in particular tend to have a less fixed sexual identity

Honestly? I think women are just more easily admitting to it ...
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From:tatjna
Date:August 26th, 2014 08:27 pm (UTC)
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Last night I read the literature review section and while it didn't address this question directly, it definitely comprehensively covered the various theories of sexuality (or more precisely, what makes different sexualities).

There's been a lot of research trying to identify biological markers for sexuality, and what they've discovered is that nothing is carved in stone, but it seems that the things that can indicate same-sex leanings in men do not have the same effect in women. Things like fetal exposure to androgens, for example.

So there's some indication that there are differences in the mechanics of how women and men's sexualities develop. It also touched on social construction theories, but it gets very murky there because anything stemming from cultural influences always does. And then there's the confounding factor that the vast majority of research into same-sex attraction has been on men. This research having demonstrated that men tend to have an orientation that stays fairly fixed. It may change during their lifetime, but apparently women are much more likely to change orientation backwards and forwards along a continuum.

I am hoping the author will address your question more thoroughly further along in the book.

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From:kishenehn
Date:August 26th, 2014 03:36 pm (UTC)
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Man, I would LOVE to go to Burning Man someday!!
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From:tatjna
Date:August 26th, 2014 08:13 pm (UTC)
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It's definitely worth doing. I haven't been since it got so big, but my partner's there this year and hopefully he'll come back with stories and pictures to share! ;-)
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From:pundigrion
Date:August 26th, 2014 11:26 pm (UTC)

Great Bowels of Fire!

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I keep reading BM as Bowel Movement.

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From:tatjna
Date:August 26th, 2014 11:27 pm (UTC)

Re: Great Bowels of Fire!

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I guess that's one way of looking at it... O.o
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From:pundigrion
Date:August 26th, 2014 11:27 pm (UTC)

Re: Great Bowels of Fire!

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With one brown eye?
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From:tatjna
Date:August 26th, 2014 11:28 pm (UTC)

Re: Great Bowels of Fire!

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*wink*
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