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Tactical Ninja - Bring Sally up, bring Sally down

Jul. 1st, 2014

09:56 am - Bring Sally up, bring Sally down

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I don't really know what to say about 6 days of solid acro. I am struggling to get my head out of the physicality space and back into the cerebral. Meanwhile my body wants to know why the hell I'm sitting still and when I'm going to get up and do something. Resisting the urge to quit my job and run off to join the circus full time. The understanding that I have so many things to learn, but that there are pathways to get there.

You know when you spend a significant amount of time focused on one thing, your world narrows down to that view only, and it becomes difficult to process anything else? And how there's a quietude to be found in the exclusion of distraction that's difficult to achieve in the default world?

I am a lot of things - a crafter, a developer, a mother, a partner, a drug policy geek, a writer of wordy and introspective blogs - but for the last week I've been nothing but a body, and it's been interesting. Kind of like a meditation retreat, with pain. It ends up being a nice place, one that's hard to leave.

This morning as I did my core engagement exercises, I found myself missing Sally.

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK

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From:heathersmoo
Date:June 30th, 2014 11:15 pm (UTC)
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You should go to Tallahassee, FL. There is a nice circus school there- I went to it, lol!
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From:tatjna
Date:June 30th, 2014 11:21 pm (UTC)
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Oooh! Which discipline were you learning?
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From:pombagira
Date:July 1st, 2014 01:13 am (UTC)
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yeah.. culture shock of the body.. interesting..

am glad you had fun. :D

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From:tatjna
Date:July 1st, 2014 03:30 am (UTC)
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It really is. I'm twitchy as all getout and brain still not really in gear. I'm looking forward to my walk home.

Weird.
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From:tyellas
Date:July 1st, 2014 03:22 am (UTC)
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I recently emceed a very dance/acrobatics oriented show, and backstage, none of the performers were really talking. They were pleasant, they smiled and even laughed, but they were abstracted. Your post helps me see that they were anticipating a different, very non-verbal zone.
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From:tatjna
Date:July 1st, 2014 03:30 am (UTC)
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Hmm, yeah. I'd imagine adding an upcoming performance into the mix would alter your mental state even more. Interesting..
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From:tieke
Date:July 1st, 2014 08:36 am (UTC)
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Yeah - for me, preparing for a highly physical performance requires a very focussed headspace, and chatting disrupts that (and it can be hard to deal with if there's a chatty person backstage.
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From:raincitygirl
Date:July 1st, 2014 05:35 pm (UTC)
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but for the last week I've been nothing but a body, and it's been interesting. Kind of like a meditation retreat, with pain. It ends up being a nice place, one that's hard to leave.

Yeah, it sounds very interesting. Your acro posts have been fascinating.
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From:pundigrion
Date:July 2nd, 2014 01:08 pm (UTC)
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This is what I love about backpacking and canoeing as well. Your world narrows to one foot (paddle) in front of the other and planning for the next campsite/portage.
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From:tatjna
Date:July 2nd, 2014 08:17 pm (UTC)
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I did have a couple of moments when I felt like I *should* be thinking about bigger things, but I found that I couldn't. Not falling off that pile of people has a way of blocking out everything else as a priority.

I kind of like what making those kind of switches does to my brain.
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From:pundigrion
Date:July 3rd, 2014 01:57 am (UTC)
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Ah yes, in backpacking when you mind wanders is when your feet find roots to trip over!
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