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Freedom - so close I can taste it. - Tactical Ninja

Jun. 5th, 2012

09:48 am - Freedom - so close I can taste it.

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I did it! The final assessment for the drugs course is handed in. I would call it workmanlike without being outstanding - it's really hard to be outstanding with a critical analysis of an issue in 150 words, just saying. And I probably won't get my mark for over a month, since they never seem to put up results till all the exams are over. Which kind of sucks if you do a course with no exam, that finishes before exams start.

Anyway, I am now intellectually free for the next 6 weeks, and the next course I do will be the last one, then I can call myself Educated. OMG. Coincidentally, my replacement copy of the DA:O expansion pack arrived this morning (the first one, which the YoT bought me for my birthday, had been stomped on in transit), and I have a copy of Mass Effect (the first one, cos I'm that awesome), as yet unplayed.


Like, before I decided to get educated?

This business of studying while working full time has eaten my life in ways I never expected. Like, realistically there's only one lot of readings (about 2 hours) a week, a couple of lectures that usually take place during working hours, and then the various assignments, which I admit I probably put more time and effort into than someone who is studying full time and has other things on their plate as well.

But it takes over my head, and hangs over me in a way that prevents me from doing other things. I feel guilty about gaming if I should be reading up on the politics of heroin or whatever, and I don't want to take on board any extra commitments because of how I really ought to be studying instead.

Note here that I still seem to have ended up doing primary research for the BZP study, and circus classes and whatnot, but it's a lot less than I'd normally take on. I originally thought it was because Mum was sick that I started dropping the stuff of my life, but as it turns out, it was probably more about the study.

After 5 years of this, I feel as though I've almost forgotten what it's like to be free to go "YES" to everything.

However, I think I need to get back into the habit. On Saturday night I was asked by the organiser if I would be going to this: Under the Spinfluence, a Wellington-based gathering of circus performers, hobbyists and various spinners of toys. I was noncommittal at the time, because DEGREE! But I looked it up and it's only three days and surely I can fit that in - if it doesn't fall on a weekend where I have to write an essay. I've already scrapped the idea of going to OzBurn this year because they've made the dates fall splat in the middle of the semester, and it would cause me to miss at least four lectures in a row, and I can't afford to do that.

So Under the Spinfluence it is. Maybe.

Oh boy am I looking forward to when it'll be "OH HELL YES" without reservation.


Today I am looking at how to go about actually graduating, and who is best to talk to about what to do next. Don't get me wrong, I really want some time off studying to be irresponsible and do other things and get over being sick of it, but I know already that I'll go back because I have something I need to do and academia is where that something can happen. Meanwhile, I've decided I want to go to the graduation ceremony. I'm the first in my family to get a degree, and Mum and Dad would have been there with bells on to be all proud n shit, so I'm going to do it for them - and for the people who've listened to my ranting over the years. First and last chance to point and laugh at me in a silly hat guys! PS I want a picture that I can point at and go "WE'VE GOT QUALIFICATIONS!"

Meanwhile, I feel another ridiculous tutu coming on. That I might actually have time to make.

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From:rivet
Date:June 4th, 2012 10:11 pm (UTC)
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I, for one, can't wait to celebrate your graduation. What month do they have those in?
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From:tatjna
Date:June 4th, 2012 10:17 pm (UTC)
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It will be in May. I secretly harbour the hope that you'll be able to make it over.

I also want to put soap flakes in the bucket fountain!
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From:pombagira
Date:June 4th, 2012 11:12 pm (UTC)
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whoot.. soap flakes in the bucket fountain.. *twirls about*

and want to be in the cheering team when you graduate!!

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From:tatjna
Date:June 4th, 2012 11:14 pm (UTC)
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I have a list in my head of people and you're definitely on it.

(i have no idea how many people i'm allowed. hopefully all of them)
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From:caycos
Date:June 4th, 2012 11:43 pm (UTC)
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When I graduated (aggges ago) from memory they give you somewhere between 2 and 4 tickets for guests. I think it was more like 2. But there's also the street parade...
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From:russiandolls
Date:June 4th, 2012 11:51 pm (UTC)
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Last time I graduated (2006) you were given three tickets, but were able to apply for more, depending on how many graduands they had in your ceremony.
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From:tatjna
Date:June 5th, 2012 12:06 am (UTC)
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Probably loads, because Arts is such a bunny course. ;-p

Edited at 2012-06-05 12:06 am (UTC)
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From:t_c_da
Date:June 5th, 2012 04:34 am (UTC)
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We managed to get about 5 or 6 folk in for the fashionista's graduation a few years back...
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From:rivet
Date:June 5th, 2012 11:26 am (UTC)
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Totally there :D
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From:helianthas
Date:June 5th, 2012 08:58 am (UTC)
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Congrats!!! An I'm glad you'll be
Going to
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Ceremony. You rock! Well done! And all that. :-)</p>

Do post pics. Do you get to wear the gown, too?

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From:tatjna
Date:June 5th, 2012 09:40 am (UTC)
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Hehe it won't be for another year cos universities are slow! And yeah, you have to wear the gown or they won't let you in.
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